Half In

Do you ever feel half in something? Like, you can't fully commit to something because there are so many things that you're working on?

I was driving home from work tonight and thinking about this idea, and I've come to realize that if I really want to be a professional author, then I can't be half in. I've never really thought of myself as being half in writing, but as I was driving, I realized I really was.

No, I'm not talking about quitting my amazing job to pursue writing full-time, but I think there are some things which I have to prioritize in my life better than I have been. As a writer I have to be willing to promote myself and my work, and by promote I mean something other than online. I have to be an actual person and do book talks, signings, etc. That idea scares me silly. I don't want to put myself out there like that, but I really have to.

So that is now going to be one of my 2015 writing goals. My 2014 writing goal in this area is to go to at least one writing event every month. I've been doing an okay job at this goal, but next year I want to step this up. I would like to promote myself and my work at least once a month next year. I want to be able to do book talks at libraries, set up my very first book signing, and put myself fully out there.

After this semester ends (five more weeks!) I am done with school (unless sometime in the future I decide to pursue my BA in English. I got into State once [this year] I can do it again!). Once school is done, this will free up a lot of my time and energy. I'll continue working full time, running my critique groups, and working with the Youth Groups, but I'm going to be able to jump fully into writing.

I don't want to be half in anymore. I want to be submerged, and I know with support, 2015 will be an exciting year!

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